Spoons

Posted by on Nov 5, 2014 in blog | 0 comments

Spoons

There’s been many occasions when Ive tried to express how I feel when I just don’t have the strength to do the simplest of tasks. Friends & Family alike look at me like I’m crazy and I’m at a loss for words. I came across this blog┬áthat says it.┬áThe Spoon Theory, a way to explain what it feels like to live with chronic illness. The basic idea is we start each day holding a certain amount of spoons. throughout the day we need to carefully decide how we want to use each spoon.

Taking a shower is a spoon used, going to get the mail, making breakfast, doctor appointment…hard to plan anything because if you have 5 spoons plan to use those and something pops up like say you drop a carton of almond milk and need to clean it up. oops no more spoons. Incidentally dropping things happens WAY too often with my fumbliness.

The days I paint are huge. I have to consider setting up. That is getting my supplies gathered. Then preparing the canvas, gesso base coats etc. Then the actual art happens. thats the JOY and best part. Then cleaning up the area and cleaning up myself. Thats about 5 spoons and doesnt include anything else for the day. Difficult but I gotta tell you I NEED to make art. It keeps me alive.