Tantrum

Posted by on Aug 12, 2012 in blog | 0 comments

Tantrum

Feeling low these last few days. Body aching, the injections I take 3x a week…well it seems the needle is getting bigger with each shot. My thoughts are going to places like…”maybe thats enough shots, maybe its time I get a job, maybe if I stop the shots and get a job I’ll get better.” This is impossible I know. Yet, thats not the point. Im done with this whole thing. The being immobilized, the injections, the lack of income, the bills, the heat of Tucson. I’m used to having control. I’m used to fixing things…

I see Im just that little girl, laying on my belly flailing my hands and feet throwing a tantrum…knowing I need to surrender, have patience, listen, learn, expand…I know it’s all as it should be. Breathe.