Unknowing

Posted by on Jul 14, 2012 in blog | 0 comments

Unknowing

The Scariest thing was not knowing what was happening to my body. Unable to do what I took for granted. Walking, Writing, holding things, shaving, showering, eating my whole world as I understood it, just gone. The worst feeling was not knowing how far it would go. Getting an MS diagnosis was in fact a good thing. I then knew what it was, could put a name to it, could see how to fix it. That UNKNOWING was the fear.  Now I could focus my attention on recovery.

With the support of my loving friends and guidance from some new friends put together a plan and Ive been on that path since. Exercise, Meditation, Strict diet of Greens (9 cups a day) and fruit.  There was a pharmaceutical company that gave me Rebif (interferon) for 1 year. Thats 3 injections a week. They don’t know how it works, just that it stops the progression.

Bills of course are flooding in from things I don’t even remember doing in the hospital, $13K and MRI’s, X-rays, etc, etc,doctor visits, etc. Currently up to the ceiling.  I applied for the social security disability and will most likely qualify, because I can no longer work. But, there is at least 5 month waiting period and then its a check for $900 a month.  How they expect people to survive 5 months..